hi. well, i just happened to tune into a healing online tonight. it attracted me because it was quick. a 10 minute clearing of soul contracts…well, i had an ah ha moment…that my tiredness i believe are a bunch of soul contracts i haven’t released. and that energy is tiring. soul contracts like the messenger, the politician who abused power, and then fear of my power (perhaps so that i don’t abuse it again?!!!)…the healer is another i think (needing to say no..which i can but just the idea of being the helper, the healer…been doing that all my life) feels like if anything i want to lessen the grip on that…there are probably more…but i allowed my guides and akashic helper to help me release. saw them right away and lots of light….askashic guide was ready to get to work!!! afterward i felt reverence for it and tears dropped as i felt release/relief. but not elation. i did get hot. anyway, i’m still not sure about joining you (it’s perhaps too late) because i don’t know when the training starts. i was assuming tomorrow. i am feeling a great exhaustion (not as much at the moment) and although i really want to get out there, i am feeling that one of my big lessons and portal that i need to walk through is to be with my wombspace/heart and just rest and be. keep it simple. i am feeling overwhelmed but i think releasing messenger and social activist and the need to help everyone will free up my energy. i also still have a memory of being shot at from a car!! anyway, i am sending all of it love and light…and hopefully next time i drive, i’ll just pass other cars with complete peace. i want to become a woman (:))), let this child go that has been the helper and go deeper into my internal journey and bring that Goddess out. now, if your program facilitates this i shall jump aboard if it’s still possible even. i am going to look at the program (i guess releasing procrastination …fear of what success??)….perfection…that one is a complex that is, well, complex. but ties into the procrastination. i shared with a friend about your feedback about complicating and confusing my life as a block. she laughed…i think ya, it was obvious!!! ;))). the procrastination is also the exhaustion. i enjoyed erica ross’s workshop but am still recovering from that!!….anyway, this is a process. i hope you understand. i am now going to your program. much love and light and gratitude for the gifts. i also need to go the bank tomorrow and confirm my money situation. thanks brenda. i’m trying my best.