I feel like I’m having an identity crisis. That’s because I am. Me, my business and my spiritual development. We’ve been going through some major evolution. We – and you – are not alone.
I suppose this has been a running theme in my life since I was adopted at birth and I was raised in a family and community of people who didn’t “get” me. I’ll bet many of you can relate, even if you weren’t adopted.
You know that itch to recreate yourself? That impossible-to-ignore urge to do something different, bigger, deeper? That’s where I’m at right now. You too? Great! You’re right on time!
When you allow your own evolution, it doesn’t just stop when you think you’ve somehow “arrived”. It keeps on going. Waves and bursts of spiritual upgrades. The scary, frustrating moments in between. And thankfully, the beautiful plateaus we get to rest on for a while once we’ve had an upgrade or uplevel.
The problem with a Spiritual Identity Crisis is, it can become a very compelling excuse for holding back or hiding out when your spirit is being called into something more. Businesses don’t get started. That blog or website is never quite perfect. Speaking from the stage never happens. Dreams don’t get to manifest.
News Flash: We are in a state of rapid evolution and we are ever-creative beings!
Are You Having A Spiritual Identity Crisis?
The Mirriam Webster Dictionary defines “identity crisis” as a feeling of unhappiness and confusion caused by not being sure about what type of person you really are or what the true purpose of your life is.
My definition of a Spiritual Identity Crisis is: a feeling of dissatisfaction, disorientation, confusion and fear in the midst of a strong urge to understand who you really are, and to be fully self-expressed. You may or may not know what your purpose is, but you know you need to activate it.
My own Spiritual Identity Crisis is getting on my nerves! I’m writing copy for my new website and feeling the call to something even deeper than I just uncovered that I was all excited about. Honestly, it’s annoying and a little disheartening, because a lot of what I wrote a few weeks or months ago is no longer a match for where I’m headed with my business. The language I’m speaking and perhaps even some of my offerings, have to change. Again. *sigh*
I could go in a million directions but I can only pick one. Not just one thing I get to do, but one path I get to do it on. The road can be fun, long and amazing and include lots of what I’m passionate about no matter which route I choose. But I can’t split myself into a million Brenda’s (well, on a multi-dimensional level maybe but that’s another subject lol), so I have to choose a path… or let the path choose me.
Checklist: If ANY of these are true, the answer is YES.
- I KNOW I’m supposed to be doing something more, something deeper.
- Something has to change but I don’t know what or how.
- All the spiritual advisors I’m seeing keep saying the same thing – that I have this big purpose and I need to step into it.
- I’m afraid. Afraid of my own power. Afraid of being seen by people who don’t know about my spiritual abilities. Afraid of being persecuted.
- It’s like a portal is in front of me, trying to suck me in, but I’m afraid of what’s on the other side, so I keep resisting.
- I feel like I’m pregnant and the baby is about to come.
- I can’t handle all this waiting. Why aren’t we there yet??
- I don’t know who I am any more. Maybe I never did. What is my purpose?
- Something is missing. When it’s no longer missing, everything will feel better.
- I’m bored with my life (or my business).
- The people in my life don’t get me or appreciate me.
- I’m tired of going through the motions. Somebody please show me something better.
Sound familiar? If ANY of these at all are true for you, you’re in a Spiritual Identity Crisis. There’s nothing wrong with you. You are right on time. And like I said, you’re not alone.
Take a deep breath into your belly, exhale, and let me share some tips with you.
A lot of us are in transition right now with ourselves, our businesses and our spiritual missions, so if you are too, it’s not just you. It’s been going on for a while and it isn’t about to end now… but you can learn how to ride the waves.
What I’m sensing and receiving about all of this is: Mother Earth has been shifting very rapidly to rebalance herself, especially in the last few weeks. We are intrinsically connected to our planet, so that means we need to also shift very rapidly and it might not all be pleasant. We’re supporting the healing of our planet, not just through our work, but through our physical human bodies and our energy fields.
That’s why you may have been feeling drained or extra tired recently or even now (putting my hand up). We have to be upgraded on an energetic level in order to continue our lives on this planet.
Self-care is extremely important right now and any time you’re in a Spiritual Identity Crisis. Go easy on yourself when things don’t seem to work out. And don’t give up. Your plans and what your business or mission look like might need to change but don’t give up.
Get support when and how you need it. Doing this alone won’t work. Yes, your spiritual guides and intuition are awesome, but you’re going to need some human help along the way.
Go with the flow. Paying attention to the little things is important.
It’s time to see from the eye of the observer – that part of you who sees all without judgment. Then you can make decisions from a place of deep knowing and connection, rather than from a place of fear.
Re-creating your identity is very important.
As a spiritual trailblazer or entrepreneur, your spiritual identity is the foundation of your mission. There is only one YOU who can fulfill your spiritual mission and purpose. For people to invest in or support your mission, they need to be able to relate to you. They need to know that you’ve been where they are now and that you can help them out of that place into where YOU are now. Make sense?
Don’t you wish you could go to a networking event and just telepathically or energetically tell people who you are? Like they instantly just “get” you without you having to say anything? They come up and tell you they just had a feeling they need to talk to you?
Honestly, with the right support and practice, and the right people in front of you, it’s possible. I’ve done it lots of times.
That’s how your story can also function, IF you really get to know who you are, and accept and OWN who you are, even as you are evolving into something else.
So what’s your story? Who are you NOW? Who were you before your transformation? Who are you becoming?
Share on the blog! It will create some accountability for you and help you to OWN who you really are.
Lots of Love & Blessings,
Brenda MacIntyre – Medicine Song Woman